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Let it go..

There is actually nothing wrong with wanting what is best for you, for cutting loose strings that were attached to view for surveillance purposes, for that cock-eyed warped view of people needing to know what’s going on in your life…

Having had conversations with many different people from different back grounds, different walks off life, have all proved one thing..

2018 had been a truly painful year for most, a financially unstable year for some, and an eye opening year for rest..

Coming together as friends, colleagues on a very spiritual, intellectual level, sharing experiences, tears and everything that goes with pain, the only foundation that could have been established to fix these shaky moments was to LET GO!!!

LET GO OF THE HURT
LET GO OF THE ANGER
LET GO OF ANYTHING THAT TOOK YOUR PEACE
LET GO OF NEGATIVITY
LET GO OF THE PENT UP ANAMOSITY
LET GO OF EVERYTHING AND LET GOD 🙏

To you that has suffered loss, I pray almighty replace it with better..
To you that has had your dignity, reputation and respect tarnished by some self centered selfish human, may almighty elevate you to such a height that the same people that ridiculed you, respect and treat you with honor..
May your heart only know peace and love..
May your pain wash away like summers rain..
God give you the strenght to walk away from those you treasured even though it may hurt.. If they really cared you would feel and know it..

Sadly today people that pray to God for your destruction, for you to fall and for you to be removed so they can have what is so displeasing to God, are people you have loved, people you do love and it is really okay to remove that toxicity out your life.. After all it is only the ones living a lie that will so heated with anger because their deeds in the dark always seek the light..

LET THE NEGATIVITY OF 2018 MAKE THAT GRAND EXIT WITH 2018

#WELCOME 2019 WITH LOVE AND LIGHT
#OWN 2019
#AND NEVER ALLOW ANYONE TO DIM YOUR SPARKLE
#YOU ARE BEING BLESSED WITH ANOTHER CHANCE AN EMPTY 2019 FILL IT WITH POSITIVE VIBES, LOVE AND EVERYTHING THAT WILL NOT BLOCK YOUR BLESSINGS..

LET GO OF THE PAIN OF 2018
LET GO OF THOSE WITH THAT WARPED MENTALITY SCHEMING YOUR DESTRUCTION 👍

DARLING JUST LET GO AND LET GOD 🙏

Taking a few days off everything, taking timeout to recollect and reset severly shattered pieces.. Has made me come to one very raw realization..

No matter how well you may treat people, no matter how real you are with people, despite people knowing the truth of a person or reality of a situation, all they are going to see is what they choose to see..

And see what it boils down to again “CHOICES”, a choice can be made to stand in a flock to fit in, or stand alone for the truth..

And this is why i could never adjust to a certain society like i wished too..

Standing for something, most importantly standing for the truth will most certainly leave you standing alone, will leave you gossiped about, there will be rumours and sadly that is inevitable, how we choose to deal with that is how our circumstances turnout.. How the future turns out..

Pain and hurt is never caused by people unknown, it is always going to come from people who feel threatened, by people whom we loved and did our damndest for, people we went out of our way making effort for and you know that’s really okay, they cause pain, that’s okay, they cause wildfire rumours, that’s okay too, after all everything said to those gossip mongers was fabricated anyway..

Now believe me, I am in no way perfect, nor are any of you either, God creates so He can step by step perfect us through trial and error, if you don’t fall how do you get up right? If you don’t get hurt, how do you heal, how will you know not to hurt someone you love right?, how to not want to cause pain that someone gave so graciously to you..

I have experienced pain, so i choose not to hurt anyone nor cause pain, I am very misunderstood but that’s okay too..

I have endured heartache and loss, so i choose to fight for what’s mine, rather than throwing in the towel and walking away..

I am honest, because i never want to be deceived nor lied too..

I love with my all and i love hard because love is a precious feeling only felt by a sincere heart..

I have learnt that you have to be willing in life go through what God thinks is best for you, so you can know the sweetness of God’s love, his infinite mercies and reward beyond your imagination..

This life has become nothing more than a competetive battle ground, where the good will be shamed, the bad will be famed and the act of anything pleasing to God denamed..

People doing you wrong, will hide so no-one knows their lifes happenings, have you forgotten that there is a day of reckoning, a day you will face God and that day your life will be replayed for all to see..

A day when everything you did to bring down God’s most loved will be aired publicly, will you be able to face your maker with a heart so pure or will you down your head in shame of all your ghastly deeds, do you forget that no matter how much you hide your life from creation, the creator is watching and the wheel does turn..

Today i thank you for not believing in me, believing in the good there is to me and for seeing what the devil only wants you to see of me, something only you see cause you choose evil over the real me..

Remember everything we rushing for, toward, basically anything will all in the end lead us to only one place.. A place that no one can return from, and a place so scary that reality of what you did here will grant you your comfort/discomfort there.. Make a home rather than break it, lift someone up rather than trash them, and always bare in mind, you can hide from everyone, but God knows, hears, sees all..

Choose wisely before making the next move, speaking the next word and think triple before starting a rumor you wish people to create an outlook on, if you are wrong, apologize, no man ever died of a sincere apology, however digging a grave for someone else will only have your feet slipping in it.. Like too with you drinking poison and expecting me too die..

So to conclude my raw realization, in the end what we are all so hastily rushing toward is WHERE YOU OR I WILL BE BURIED!!!

 

It has been quiet an interesting, somewhat educating, yet brutally painful year..

In saying that yes, people can control how you feel, what you feel and when you feel it..
Do people really have the right to control the next in such a powerful manner, I think not..

The day you decide to go silent, turn to GOD and pray for his mercies is the day you will finally find the peace within to control yourself and your emotions.. And you most certainly will find what you lost.. YOURSELF!!!

The day you start training yourself to trust none other than ALMIGHTY is the day you feel and see the strenght within being unleashed.. WARRIOR WOMAN UNLEASHED!!!
The day you learn to trust that ALLAH has nothing but your best interest at heart is the day you experience true peace and contentment of heart..

Yes it is all apart of your journey and some journeys are just meant to be faced alone, baring in mind that you really are not alone coz ALLAH is with you every step you take toward that light you so desperately need..

You will always be judged, yes that’s inevitable, and that Judgement will always come from people who never took the time to get to know the real you, it will come from people not related to you and it will come from people you cared the most for, let them judge, it’s okay..
Just don’t let that judgement define who you are..

YOUR COMFORT SHOULD COME FROM KNOWING THAT THE GREATEST OF JUDGES, KNOWS EVERYTHING..

So yes, this has been a trying and testing year for myself an many i have come to know, sadly things were said and done that today can not be taken back, but i have forgiven and forgotten because ALLAH KNOWS, and that is all i need and enough for me..

There was nothing to pick on, so alot had been created, i went through yet more painful loss and then too did ALLAH protect me, yet the truth had been revealed in the same gathering that was created to tear me apart (what a price i paid for someone’s need for freedom)..
But see how merficul my LORD was toward, removing me and saving me from everything that was meant to destroy me..
Like i said before, a woman’s dignity and self respect is given to her by ALLAH, none other can give her that nor take it away..
Shukran Ya Rabb 🤲

We all say and do things out of anger, there are times when things that are taken on requiring change, if you are not ready to embrace change, don’t take it on, and lastly a woman’s heart, respect and tears are something no man should play with, how fortunate are we women hmm a whole surah created just for us..

So i bid my 2018 farewell thanking this year for the lessons brought to me, as well as my blessings, but also bidding the old me farewell too..
After all it was never about anyone else, it was my ability to show ALLAH my love for HIM and then being true to myself 💖

If we have had any altercation, I do apologize and please know that you are forgiven too..
I forgive everything bad thing said and done to bring me down, and know that we move forward on a new cleaner slate 💐
I have learnt that holding onto pain is holding onto the blade of a very sharp sword, the only person that will get hurt is the one holding on, release the anger, the pain and embrace that whoever is trying to bring you down is going through something they may never talk about, it was never really about me..
Maybe it was about them and the demons they were fighting inside..

LET LIVE.. LET LOVE.. LET GO, LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR PETTY GRIEVANCES, FOR BITTERNESS AND REVENGE.. EVERYTHING UNFOLDS IN TIME.. IN GOD’S TIME..

I FORGIVE FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..
I LOVE YOU FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..
AND I WISH YOU THE VERY BEST FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..

GOODBYE 2018
WELCOME 2019 WITH PEACE, LOVE AND EVERYTHING THAT IS PLEASING TO OUR MERCIFUL LORD..

UNLEASH THE WARRIOR INSIDE MY BEAUTIFUL, ALLAH LOVES US UNCONDITIONALLY ❤️💖💋

UNTIL WE CROSS PATHS AGAIN, MAY THE TURN OF YOUR NEW YEAR BE ONE THAT IS FILLED WITH ALLAH’S MOST BEAUTIFUL BLESSINGS AMEEN 😘

THAT’S A WRAP FROM DIARIES OF A DEEP SOUL, IT’S NOW TIME FOR SELF INTROSPECTION, TO WORK ON MY HEALING AND ME 🙏💖
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, ALLAH HAFEZ 💝😘💖

Over the past few years i had come across an array of people, mostly decent and to the point but that one hand full always had my mind working..

I always wondered why are those people were so secretive, why those people were constantly making accusations, accusing the whole world of doing horrible things to them when in reality they themselves were guilty and it got me to thinking that something had to have been wrong for them to keep doing that..

What does it really boil down to???

As amazed as i was to find out that it is actually a phobia..

Phobia of their truth being revealed..

ALETHEPHOBIA – FEAR OF TRUTH!!!

ALETHEPHOBIA DERIVATION – Phobia’s (fears) are derived from the ancient Greek. “aletheia” is ancient Greek for “truth”.

Alethephobia is Fear of Truth. It can fall into several categories. As a condition it is treated as irrational fear putting the person in an incapacitated state of mobility to a racing anticipation at the mildest. It can be fear of discovery. Fear of hearing anticipated bad news. It is knowledge of the truth being potentially disclosed and disseminated. It transverses other well known and otherwise described phobias but always is rooted in fear of the truth subjectively, objectively, relatively, or as a primary motivator of basis in individual condition.

Fear of discovery of the TRUTH.. An example!!!

Adam’s alethephobia started the moment he thought he, could play God and destroy someone’s life, his intentions were exposed when the truth, or rather his darkness came to light.. Place alethephobia in the hearts of those who deceive for the truth that is hidden will be REVEALED..

FEAR OF MACHIAVELLIA –
This is a phobia based more on darkness in a person’s actions..
In modern psychology, Machiavellianism is also the name of one of the dark triad personalities, characterized by a duplicitous interpersonal style, a cynical disregard for morality, a lack of empathy, and a focus on self-interest and personal Machiavellianism in psychology refers to a personality trait which sees a person so focused on their own interests they will manipulate, deceive, and exploit others to achieve their goals. Machiavellianism is one of the traits in what is called the ‘Dark Triad’, the other two being narcissism and psychopath..

Sad to say i have experienced first and seen this type of dangerous behavior and yes today people believe that they can play God to destroy a life, a marriage, a career etc yet so gracefully hide their life’s activities with the paranoia of what they done anr have put out coming back to them..

However fail to realize that because the laws of nature are such that whatever you put out God will send it back, be it good or bad..
Boomerang Effect!!!
People with evil intention are always those closet to you, and wish the worst on you, and stop at nothing to play wounded bear, but remember if you are so secretive and so afraid it is only because you ASSUME people you are envious off, will do the same to you as you had done to them..

Scary reality is these kinds of people do exist, and believe in sources that will blow your mind, but tend to forget that even those unnatural sources have a life span..

Before you tear someone’s reputation down, ask yourself if you have been free of sin, if your backyard is clean and if what you reveal is true..

If not, my advice to you is ZIP YOUR LIP!!!

If you have not seen it with your own eyes, or heard it with your own ears then maybe just maybe your big mouth should not be spreading it…

What goes around eventually returns, only 10 times harder..
Stop making accusations on others, rather change your way of life so you will never need to live in constant paranoia of your actions finding their way back to you 🙏💯

Dearest Heart 💖

I know you have been through alot, I know that your will to love is being tested and i know it hurts, I am truly sorry for not protecting you, I apologize for every painful thing you have to endure, I am truly truly sorry that the love you gave was taken for granted and I am sorry that you were not loved back as fiercely as you love..

My heart..
I bleed inside knowing i should have followed my head instead, but at the time you seemed so sure, you wanted what you wanted and nothing could have stopped you, but that is only because you love that way, even with all this pain you still love.. How precious are you dear heart 😔

Oh dear heart..
I understand that you feel emotionally drained, and i know im asking alot.. Today i am going to ask you to listen, be strong, hold on and don’t ever think of giving up, yes you may be tired and feel tattered, but if there’s anyone that knows you best is me, dear heart, what better heart to love than a heart than has felt every kind of pain there was to FEEL and still believes in loving..
Why wouldn’t a beautifully repaired heart by Almighty be loved like you love, my heart..

My dear heart, you have been through worst kind of emotion but with faith in your LORD, you fought a great fight.. KEEP FIGHTING!!!

Now my beloved heart..

Stop..
Take time out..
Rest..
It really doesn’t matter right now, you are so close to your blessings, don’t let the whispering of that evil one set you back..
And when the time is right and you are fully healed what you ache for will be yours yet again..

My beloved heart..
You are amazing, even though you are so exquisitely patched together, no heart will ever love like you love, your love is real and pure and know that heart, that were ceeated in heaven by the best of CREATORS..

My beloved HEART..
ALL beloved hearts that are going through something right now..

You fought before, now fight some more, victory of this war will be yours 🙏 have faith, no better cure than the cure of GOD to make you all brand new again 💖

Asking for a sign from YOU
Cause i’m so broke inside
I’m feeling lost
This world has me so confused

All these nights i’m praying i
Can be the one that YOU guide
Ya RABB i pray YOU keep me safe
From walking off the path astray

I need YOU, i trust YOU
My love is just for YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU

I need YOU, i trust YOU
I can’t do, without YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU

I know that YOU can hear me
The thoughts in my mind and the words that i whisper
I know YOU’RE here with me
But i still end up in sin
And I wish that i didn’t
Oh LORD forgive me
I messed around when i knew much better
This world can break a heart in two
And now that i know this i’ll never leave YOU

If i ever leave this path, don’t let me go
Don’t let me live a life that’s void of YOU, LORD
It’s hard to go on when so many have fallen
So LORD won’t YOU send down all of YOUR blessings

Oh oh, RABBI i know
YOU bring back those who seek YOU, LORD
I’m trying everyday to be the one
That will have YOUR love even when i go

Someone said to me once
How If i’ve sinned as much
As the ocean YOU’D still forgive
Like it was never done

I remember what i used to be
A lost soul that just couldn’t see
I drowned in my own misery
But then YOU pulled me out and i became free

Now i’m always keeping an eye on my prayers and
Staying with friends that remind me of greater
Working on goals that will benefit me later
And keeping my eyes away from all strangers

When one day i am gone
And life will carry on
I pray YOU bring me close to YOU
Cause that’s all i ever needed from YOU

I need YOU , i trust YOU
My love is just for YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU

I need YOU , i trust YOU
I can’t do, without YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU

All along i knew YOU’RE watching me
And It’s the only thing that’s given me hope
No one else can take YOUR place
No one cares as much as YOU

I need YOU , i trust YOU
My love is just for YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU

I need YOU , i trust YOU
My love is just for YOU
My LORD i will never
Put anything above YOU 🙏🤲

There is absolutely nothing under the sun we can sincerely for and never received, that’s how amazing our LORD is 💖❤️💖

#Sundaythoughts

So the excitement of 2019 has set in, however in saying that what exactly are we taking from 2018 into 2019..

More unfulfilled resolutions???
Lessons???
Blessings???
Pain and Hurt???
Healing???
Revenge???
Forgiveness???

Listen beloved known and unknown to me..

I am almost certain each and everyone off you that is going to read this has been through something, some sort of hurt in some little and not so little way, someone you trusted shattered that trust, someone you loved trashed your heart and your good name, someone’s you thought you could rely on showed you that when it comes down to it, the truth does not matter… Saving face does!!!
That no matter how much you loved and cared for them, they will knowingly take a sugarcoated lie forward and give it residence in their heads and an unpaid fully fledged tour into the ears of insignificant others, rather than clearing up dishonestly rented space to accommodate the bitter sweet truth..
Blue can never be anything but blue, right???

Honestly…
Why does it matter???
What should it matter???
Why let it define you???

How does allowing someone’s opinion of you, define you, your character or your worth, have you forgotten that it is, what it is, just their opinion???

Truth is, you and your emotions will get roughed up in an uncanny way, you will be judged for being real and your worth that is envied will be trashed to almost nothing…
THAT is where faith/imaan sets in…
Are you forgetting who controls it all?
Are you forgetting that only and only does dignity and respect come from ALMIGHTY❤️
Only ALMIGHTY has the power to give, take, name and shame…

Yes sadly jealousy is real, but as human we cannot push aside that doing the right thing no matter what should always take presidence..
Never let doing the right thing come with limitation of what truth is shown, the truth has every right to a public appearance…
Watering a “lie seed” just to protect someone does not help them, because believe me you really have no idea what you have planted until it starts it’s bloom…

We all sow what we reap and i for one am a strong believer that the proof in how one turns out at the end of it all is,
“THE ULTIMATE RESULT OF THAT HARVEST”…

This past year has held nothing but one trial after the other, surprisingly enough, i am almost certain as i have overcome each trial with the utmost respect for and trust in my CREATOR first and then those hurting or trying to break me… So should you have…
Holding onto pain or hurt caused by anyone, is like you drinking poison and expecting the person responsible for your pain to die… Not going to happen!!!

I have become more open to the fact that we are all fighting battles seen and unseen, and everyone deserves a second, third, even millionth chance, after all how many chances are we blessed with daily???

Life is not an easy journey, it really was never meant to be one, the harder the trial the sweeter the reward…
The design will be the outcome of your drawings, only you control the pencil you are sketching out your destiny with…

So instead of what our new years resolutions are going to be, how about we choose commitment rather than resolution, to ourselves and toward those around us…

Are we going to take forward appreciation of our trials and tests with grateful hearts and most importantly are we willing to moving forward free from malice, hard heartedness, venom on our tongues???

Are we going to revenge or let go and let live???

I have made the conscious choice to forgive, move forward with a grateful heart and know that my every step until now and forward has been and is being protected and guided by my one true and only purest form of shadowing, by my RABB, MY LORD, my BELOVED ALLAH, Ameen Ya Rabb 🤲❤️💖🤲…
I refuse to allow trials or pain to define me, I will not allow meaningless lies/words or the actions of anyone to taint my character, I will continue loving, caring and giving…
I will stop at nothing to see a smile on the face of people known and unknown, those who love me but more so those who display hatred toward me…
I will be hopeful that my every tomorrow will be better than my every yesterday and i will be tomorrow the best version of who i was yesterday…
I choose to be consistent in my progression…

Please note anything i say or do is always advice to myself first, but if i can make a difference to one heart or put a smile on just one face, then i know that i have pleased my CREATOR and i have succeeded in being a better me 💖💝❤️💖

#noresolutions
#onlycommitments
#iforgive
#ichoosetolove
#iwillbeabetterme
#hereicome2019
#gratefulfortrials
#makemestronger

An answered prayer..
“A True Story”

So the other night sitting on her bed checking out her phone as usual, emails, whatsapp etc.. Nothing unusual until..

She reads an old chat on whatsapp and the ache in her chest starts all over again, that choking feeling in her throat and her eyes well up..

She hears the azaan and having started crying bitterly over very painful things read having being said to her, sitting on the edge of her bed, she makes a dua..

“YA ALLAH, IT STILLS HURTS SO MUCH, I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT AFTER ALL THIS TIME IT STILL TEARS ME UP, OH ALLAH PLEASE REMOVE THIS PAIN OUT MY HEAD AND HEART” ..

She heads toward the bathroom to make wudhu for SALAAH, by now she is already crying bitterly, so bitterly she starts to sob..

She comes back to find that her phone had on its own switched off, now it needed her finger print so it could switch back on..
In amazement she sits back down and watches all apps etc reinstall itself, however, her whatsapp had completely been wiped out, every single chat gone, numbers gone and to her surprise even her chat history had disappeared… Confused as ever, she battled and switched her handset on and off, off and back on again a good few times all leading to the same result..

Im that moment of weakness and pain, she had

begged Allah to remove what had been hurting her and what had her held captive in the past, it had all been removed with absolutely no trace what so ever..

Never for a second doubt that your duas are not being heard, never lose hope thinking that ALLAH does not answer..

ALLAH had heard her and ALLAH had set her free in the most blessed way ever.. HE took away everything that had been hurting her and HE replaced it with a brand new start..

Sometimes all it takes is a small step in the right direction and before you know it, you are set free from things that keep you imprisoned in the past..

Sometimes all we need to do is “LET IT GO”..
Trust in ALLAH..

I found a love so perfect for me.. I found a love 🤗

I found a love..
For me
So I’m gonna dive right in
and follow YOUR LEAD..

I found a LOVE.. BEAUTIFUL oh so SWEET!!!
I failed to see all this time
HE was protecting me..

I was so lost when
i re-discovered YOUR LOVE..
Not realizing what was damaged, until i saw YOUR LIGHT..
In that helpless moment you made me whole..
YOU took me by the hand and lead me home..
Now, I am faithfully YOURS and i believe in YOU..
So lost in all the darkness, when YOU lit up my path, you open your loving arms to me MY ALLAH..
Barefoot on a shattered glass path and YOUR MERCY smoothed it out..
Loneliness has now disappeared as i feel YOUR LIGHT shine through my heart..
Life was such a mess, when i chose to give up YOU saw something BEAUTIFUL and started your healing..
I feel undeserving of YOUR BOUNTIES OH ALLAH..
But YOUR MERCY is so wanted right now..

I found my SAVIOR, my ONE TRUE LOVE,
Stronger THAN any darkness is MY ALLAH’S LOVE..
YOU taken my fears and turned them to courage..
I found a SAVIOR to carry more than just my secrets but to repair my heart and to ease every burden this heart shall bear..

I was so lost when i found YOUR LOVE
Standing against all odds, i knew YOU would help me through..
A heart once shattered now completely whole, broken free, unchained to praise and love only YOU MY ALLAH..
I am not afraid to testify AL-WADOOD..
YOU saved this believer who was drenched in darkness..
Today i feel YOUR LOVE fill every void..

Life was such a mess, when i chose to give UP, YOU saw something BEAUTIFUL and started YOUR HEALING..
I feel undeserving of YOUR BOUNTIES OH ALLAH..
But YOUR MERCY is so wanted right now..

When my life was such a mess, having replaced YOUR LOVE with YOUR very own creation, YOU did not fail me, nor walk away, YOU saw something BEAUTIFUL and saved MY broken soul..
Oh ALLAH, I am so undeserving of YOUR MERCIFUL LOVE..
But YOUR GRACE is perfect right now..

No matter the test or darkness thrown my way, i will continue raising my hands and praising YOU..
I thank YOU for YOUR PATIENCE, and for not turning me away, MY LORD..
YOU saw something beautiful and showered me with YOUR MERCY even when i felt undeserving..

YOU MY LORD SAVED A BEAUTIFUL MESS.. YOUR GRACE IS PERFECT, SOMETHING I DON’T DESERVE, BUT YOUR GRACE IS PERFECT SO PERFECT FOR ME..

I FOUND A LOVE.. A LOVE SO PERFECT LOVE FOR ME.. MY LORD, YA RAHMAN, YA RAHEEM..
YOUR LOVE’S SO PERFECT FOR ME..

We are free to choose our actions, but we have no control over the consequences of our actions…

People forget the great power they possess within, the power to shape their lives.. Our lives are shaped by the choices we make. You are the one who chooses how to live your life or create your life’s path. Our future will not be determined by chance, but rather by the choices we make today. Life is a series of choices. I like to call it the GOOD, the BAD and the UGLY. The choices we make now affect the options available for the next round of choices. Learning how and what to choose, may be the most important information You can educate yourself with. There is no such thing as the perfection or even the perfect human being. Everyone has flaws whether we choose to accept ìt or NOT, whether we like it or NOT, but it is not something to become tense or even stress about. It is our imperfections that make us that make us imperfectly perfect human beings. These imperfections school us about ourselves and the mistakes we make in life. Lessons learnt from those mistakes tend to teach us how to be better and not make us bitter. Fortunate are those who make the concerted effort to learn from those mistakes, and by not letting those very mistakes rule them, now they become a step closer to being better than they were the mistake before, being a tad more knowledgeable as to whether the next act should be a good or bad one.
There are moment’s moments in our lives when we find ourselves at crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the present and determine the future. And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.
Which I totally disagree with no matter how painful or difficult the adversity, move forward, fight against every obstacle and you will always find success.
There may be times we make choices that cause our path to become tough, confusing and uncertain. Our path seems like a series of hills and valleys, there is never any balance. When this happens, we should stop and examine the choices we made that have lead us down this path.
We should evaluate those choices and identify alternativesor new choices that will bring us back to our true path, the one we originally created. If you have chosen to be someone who wants to keep on judging, then go ahead, don’t expect any better from anyone else…
If you choose to live a deceitful, disgraceful, unethical life, then please don’t expect nature to do you any favors, if you have turned away from Allah for that quick fix solution, I suggest you kick the habit and repent, as it is never to late for Allah’s mercy and forgiveness…

Once again we shape our lives by the choices we make…

If you don’t make a decision and by this i mean all the right choices and decisions, then time will make it for you and time will always side against you…

Desires dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions…

The Choices We Make Determine the People We Become.

Knowledge is a tree
Words are it’s leaves
But Action is it fruit

“If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become more, then you have become a leader.”

We all process relationships, may it be work or personal, through our very own perceptions and in saying that, when we relate to someone only through our own perception, it becomes one-dimensional and a tad unfair, leaving us with a warped view of reality.

Courage is not a brilliant dash nor a daring deed in a moments flash, it certainly is no instantaneous thing.. Born of despair with a sudden spring, it is not a creature of flickered hope, nor the final tug of a slipping rope, it is however something deep in the soul of a woman, always striving to serve some greater plan.. Courage is not the last resort in the work of life or a game of sport..

It is not a thing that a woman can call at some future time when she’s apt to fall, if she has not got it now she will have it not, when the strain is great and the place is hot, for who would strive for a distant goal need always courage from deep within her soul…

Courage is not a dazzling light, that’s flashes and passes away from sight, it is a slow, unwavering ingrained trait with the patience to work smart and the strenght to wait..

It is a part of a woman when her skies are blue, it is apart of her when she has much to do, the brave woman is never freed of it, she has it even when there is no need of it..

Courage was never designed for show, it is not something that can come and go, it is written in victory and defeat and every trial a woman will meet..

It is apart of her hours, her days, her years, behind her every smile, and behind her tears, courage is more than a daring deed it is the breath of life and a strong woman’s creed..

So i end by saying, above all that’s been said..

Be your own heroine in the play of life..

Never the victim of circumstance..

Have courage beautiful🌹

Having spent a little time by myself and in meditation, it really has opened me up to so much, everything in life we do is rushed, or has to rushed.. We are always in such a hurry for absolutely everything, but as human we are going to err from time to time that is inevitable, however the one thing all this teaches us is PATIENCE/SABR…

Spending time with someone..
Rush through that visit, or you miss a movie/series you watched over like a gazillion times..

Making Ibadah..
Race through Salaah, or else you lose customers, friends get tired of waiting, time for social media, TV, etc gets minimized..

Charity..
Take photos, lots of photos, make videos and lots of them, an instant rush hits you and you need to upload them in a hurry so”people” can “ooh” and “aah” about the amazing work you doing..

I could truly go on, the list is that long, however these are things we are all guilty off, things most valued to ALLAH we have taken for granted..

Spend time with those closest to heart and treasure that time for once the moment is lost and long gone, you are never getting it back..

Accept that apology you never received and make dua for that person/s that may have broken you, maybe their fight is not really with you but themselves..
Forgive, most importantly i stress on this “FORGIVE AND LET GO”and DON’T seek revenge..
Let ALLAH do what needs to be done, that after all is HIS job..

Why rush our ibadah when everything we rushing from and toward has been graciously granted to us by ALLAH Ta’allah, our time on this earth was only lent to us.. The air we breath was lent to us, the TV sets, money, luxuries of life we rushed toward was created by creation of a magnificent CREATOR..

Prioritize my dear one..

Today i choose to rush away from the illusions of a temporary life and toward what is real, TIME WITH MY LORD..
Spend more time with the ones i love, for who knows my tomorrow is certainly not guaranteed.. I FORGIVE..

Pray, isolate yourself and pray, cry, throw a tantrum, fight with ALLAH, because that is what HE loves is when HIS creation throws themselves at his mercy HE becomes so overjoyed HE starts blessing them with what HE knows best for them..

Can we truly today say that ALLAH is happy with us, or the states our hearts are in???
ARE WE HAPPY WITH THE STATES OF OUR HEARTS???

Make that time to ask, repent and beg ALLAH today, with no hurry and no need to rush and that sincere dua may just be answered sooner, rather than later..

#reflections
#introspect
#stoprushing
#commitedtopleasingmyLORD

Complain..

Do not complain, there is always someone, somewhere who is worse off than you are, wishes they have what you do..

Live with an Attitude of Gratitude!!!

Condemn..

Take a long hard look at your actions, before putting down or tearing apart another for their actions!!!

Criticize..

Be your own personal critic, criticize yourself first, if you can handle that and correct your own fault, then only should you think about criticizing others or their faults..

CHOICES.. CHANCES.. CHANGE!!!

YOU HAVE GOT TO MAKE A POSITIVE AND CONFIDENT CHOICE TO TAKE THE BOLD CHANCE OR LIFE, YOUR LIFE AS YOU KNOW IT, WILL NEVER CHANGE!!!

This is something from me to you..

You who may feel hopeless, stuck between a rock and a very painful place..

You, who has given up believing that hope is just not possible..

If that is YOU.. Believe me you are not alone!!!

To you my broken Friend, I understand that things have not been easy of late.. Every passing moment of every single day feels exactly the same.. YOU so badly want to let that painful scream out the darkest part of you, because you just do not get any of it anymore, nor does anyone around you, get you either.. You are so terribly misunderstood..

Everyday feels more and more like a downward spiral, you pray for hope, but still everything keeps going miserably wrong..

Somewhere in all that darkness the only thing giving you any sort of comfort is that ghastly word “suicide”, ending it all constantly crosses your mind, that is the one option that seems to make sense or feel right, you would have to feel anything ever again..

You close your eyes, take that deep painful breath and you pray, you pray a little harder, asking your LORD, to clear your mind, heart and soul of that evil thought, because you know it may be a quick fix but it just is not the right thing to do…

My Friend, Believe me it does get easier..

I was once you, I searched for acceptance and the feeling of finding so desperately to have that void filled, searching in people i imagined to be real and true.. Once i made the conscious decision to turn to my CREATOR, I learned of a love so true, so pure and so absolutely unconditional.. I found what i had so desperately needed to fill that void..

I learnt the hard way that people would only care and accept me when it suited, if i lived according to their say so, and fed their hunger for convenience, all the while losing more and more of myself, falling further and deeper into their notion of reality, and a truly miserable darkness..

I chose not too..

As much as that had dropped me in their eyes, my FASHIONER had a bigger better plan for me, HE elevated my status and HE lifted me in HIS sight..

Right then and there i realized that all i ever did need was my LORD, and my friend once you realize that, nothing and no-one will have the power to ever tear down the wall of protection ALMIGHTY has protected you with..

So chin up dearest friend, life will not get any better if you sit there feeling sorry for yourself, or expecting a pity party thrown in your honor, change will come with ease when you fully hand your troubles over to your CREATOR, and walk away with hope and faith, not looking back to go take back and try fixing it yourself, trust that ALMIGHTY will do the most perfect job in making it all right..

Because our need to want things fixed now and now is so powerful, ALLAH starts holding your blessings back, HE asked you to hand him your troubles and pray, pray hard, cry, fight, have that long overdue chat with Him..

ALLAH Ta’Allah wants us to appreciate what HE gives us and when..

HE wants to teach the art of being and practicing patience, by holding back what we desire and what HE knows is not good for us, and in HIS time shower us with what HE knows is best for us.. HE wants to give us what we will not expect and bless us with what HE so DIVINELY wrote out for us..

Remember dear Friend, there will always be something or someone, that will cause grave pain to us, not really having knowledge of the situation, be patient and forgive them anyway..

For our LORD is all we really need through this journey of life.. Trusting in ALLAH, there will always be hope, having hope means you have finally had faith and entrusted ALLAH with all your obstacles, for HIM to make brand new what may seem so badly broken..

Be strong Friend..

Have faith Friend..

ALLAH will heal You..

And believe that HE will have mercy..

Kids are like snowflakes, none the same, all unique and so beautiful..
Sadly society puts upon them that deathly grip of insecurity, forcing our angels to perform pretentiously..
They teach them..
They teach us that if you are hyperactive, you are a defiant, rebellious, good for nothing diliquent..
They teach kids with autism that their disability is a disease, callously telling them that they will never get to where they want or need to be in life..
Fear is created and instilled..
They preach to them that grades are everything, and that even if you show your best work, you will fail..
You will fail, and fail, and fail, until suddenly..
You are a 20 year old sitting in a class of 12 year olds..
The anxiety caused by these assumptions create pain..
Kids will start searching for guidance, searching for anyone, someone, who might be able to understand their struggles, but rarely do they find it..
They create shame..
If you have depression, they say, “it is all in your head or the best one” “get over it.”
When you cry, they will presume that you cry at everything. They will strip your freedom from you without remorse..

You are but a child to them..

Adults have power..

Do not let them get to you..

Do not let them drag you down..

For you a snowflake..

Unique…Yourself…And A Beautiful Snowflake 💋

The human mind can be oh so deceptive, when something goes wrong, we turn a blind eye to the reason it could be happening and start playing the blame game..

“Oh someone must have done it, oh he/she did it, it’s his/her fault she is destroying him/her”..

Take a step back, stop, and most importantly think..

It is simply not humanly possible for everything that goes wrong in our lives to be someone else’s fault, it goes wrong because our choices are not pleasing to ALLAH..

Is it really someone doing something unnatural to us, like our minds feed and poison us or is it the QADR OF ALLAH????

And so many of us are guilty for having these thoughts, making accusations and not actually taking responsibility for those very actions..

I cannot go around blaming the world because i made a conscious choice of putting people and their emotions before ALLAH..

I simply cannot go around pointing fingers callously..

Making a change needed to start with and within me..

Allah will give you so much and so much of what you want, to watch how you walk with it, are you walking with it respectfully, are you walking with it shamelessly???

Food for thought hey!!!

The foundation of attaining anything is having ALLAH as the solid entity in this life HE gave us, having a LIT, TIGHT relationship with the DIVINE..

A test is set out to us, to shape and mould us..
Heartache is felt because that very heart needs to love ALLAH first..
We face loss only to be blessed with bountiful gain..
It must all at some point fall apart, to be re-arranged in a manner pleasing to ALLAH..

And as you will have noticed by now, that i mention ALLAH before everything and anything said and done..

Having made ALLAH my foundation..
I have attained peace of mind..
I have been blessed with rizq..
I have seen the unseen and have been saved from it..
I have found my true purpose..
I now know what is unpleasing to my LORD and stay away from it avoiding the chance of it poisoning me again or making my FASHIONER angry enough to test me again..

We control what we go through and sometimes losing ourselves and sight of it all is just the wake up call we need 🙏

I am a better version of me today because i chose ALLAH to be the foundation for this life of mine..
I have been so truly blessed with a new, deep, refreshing kind of love for my FASHIONER..
For accepting my fault and making it right, for accepting who i was created to be and not be someone unfamiliar to me..
I have learnt that i cannot go through this life neglecting the ONE who gave me this life..

Yesterday i made the conscious decision to change me…

TODAY ALLAH CHANGED EVERYTHING AROUND ME…

SHUKRAN MY RABB, FOR ALL THAT YOU DO AND FOR ALL THAT I AM 💖
SHUKRAN YA RABB FOR SHOWING ME MY TRUE PURPOSE 💝

AND IT ALL HAPPEND THE DAY I CHANGED ME…

Right here, right now.. She is living her best life!!!

She is focused on her relationship with GOD and HE has given her the strenght to focus on herself.. She is falling so deeply in love with who she is.. She is ecstatic about where she is headed and more so excited about what is next… She has become goal driven, so many dreams and filled with ambition and she is constantly finding new passions… She has learnt to be spontaneous… She has learnt to start taking risks… And she has finally stepped out her comfort zone…You see right now she is on a path stepping toward her own happiness… She is chasing what feeds her soul… To be honest with you, she could care less about people, their opinions or what they are doing… She has learnt to stress less about what people think… Because right here and right now, she and her life are filled with a priceless peace…A new light… So much growth… So much faith… And hope she just cannot explain… And right now she is just living her best life, and there is absolutely nothing and no-one that can say or do anything to get in the way of that… “Deep soul”