This is something from me to you..
You who may feel hopeless, stuck between a rock and a very painful place..
You, who has given up believing that hope is just not possible..
If that is YOU.. Believe me you are not alone!!!
To you my broken Friend, I understand that things have not been easy of late.. Every passing moment of every single day feels exactly the same.. YOU so badly want to let that painful scream out the darkest part of you, because you just do not get any of it anymore, nor does anyone around you, get you either.. You are so terribly misunderstood..
Everyday feels more and more like a downward spiral, you pray for hope, but still everything keeps going miserably wrong..
Somewhere in all that darkness the only thing giving you any sort of comfort is that ghastly word “suicide”, ending it all constantly crosses your mind, that is the one option that seems to make sense or feel right, you would have to feel anything ever again..
You close your eyes, take that deep painful breath and you pray, you pray a little harder, asking your LORD, to clear your mind, heart and soul of that evil thought, because you know it may be a quick fix but it just is not the right thing to do…
My Friend, Believe me it does get easier..
I was once you, I searched for acceptance and the feeling of finding so desperately to have that void filled, searching in people i imagined to be real and true.. Once i made the conscious decision to turn to my CREATOR, I learned of a love so true, so pure and so absolutely unconditional.. I found what i had so desperately needed to fill that void..
I learnt the hard way that people would only care and accept me when it suited, if i lived according to their say so, and fed their hunger for convenience, all the while losing more and more of myself, falling further and deeper into their notion of reality, and a truly miserable darkness..
I chose not too..
As much as that had dropped me in their eyes, my FASHIONER had a bigger better plan for me, HE elevated my status and HE lifted me in HIS sight..
Right then and there i realized that all i ever did need was my LORD, and my friend once you realize that, nothing and no-one will have the power to ever tear down the wall of protection ALMIGHTY has protected you with..
So chin up dearest friend, life will not get any better if you sit there feeling sorry for yourself, or expecting a pity party thrown in your honor, change will come with ease when you fully hand your troubles over to your CREATOR, and walk away with hope and faith, not looking back to go take back and try fixing it yourself, trust that ALMIGHTY will do the most perfect job in making it all right..
Because our need to want things fixed now and now is so powerful, ALLAH starts holding your blessings back, HE asked you to hand him your troubles and pray, pray hard, cry, fight, have that long overdue chat with Him..
ALLAH Ta’Allah wants us to appreciate what HE gives us and when..
HE wants to teach the art of being and practicing patience, by holding back what we desire and what HE knows is not good for us, and in HIS time shower us with what HE knows is best for us.. HE wants to give us what we will not expect and bless us with what HE so DIVINELY wrote out for us..
Remember dear Friend, there will always be something or someone, that will cause grave pain to us, not really having knowledge of the situation, be patient and forgive them anyway..
For our LORD is all we really need through this journey of life.. Trusting in ALLAH, there will always be hope, having hope means you have finally had faith and entrusted ALLAH with all your obstacles, for HIM to make brand new what may seem so badly broken..
Be strong Friend..
Have faith Friend..
ALLAH will heal You..
And believe that HE will have mercy..
