It has been quiet an interesting, somewhat educating, yet brutally painful year..
In saying that yes, people can control how you feel, what you feel and when you feel it..
Do people really have the right to control the next in such a powerful manner, I think not..
The day you decide to go silent, turn to GOD and pray for his mercies is the day you will finally find the peace within to control yourself and your emotions.. And you most certainly will find what you lost.. YOURSELF!!!
The day you start training yourself to trust none other than ALMIGHTY is the day you feel and see the strenght within being unleashed.. WARRIOR WOMAN UNLEASHED!!!
The day you learn to trust that ALLAH has nothing but your best interest at heart is the day you experience true peace and contentment of heart..
Yes it is all apart of your journey and some journeys are just meant to be faced alone, baring in mind that you really are not alone coz ALLAH is with you every step you take toward that light you so desperately need..
You will always be judged, yes that’s inevitable, and that Judgement will always come from people who never took the time to get to know the real you, it will come from people not related to you and it will come from people you cared the most for, let them judge, it’s okay..
Just don’t let that judgement define who you are..
YOUR COMFORT SHOULD COME FROM KNOWING THAT THE GREATEST OF JUDGES, KNOWS EVERYTHING..
So yes, this has been a trying and testing year for myself an many i have come to know, sadly things were said and done that today can not be taken back, but i have forgiven and forgotten because ALLAH KNOWS, and that is all i need and enough for me..
There was nothing to pick on, so alot had been created, i went through yet more painful loss and then too did ALLAH protect me, yet the truth had been revealed in the same gathering that was created to tear me apart (what a price i paid for someone’s need for freedom)..
But see how merficul my LORD was toward, removing me and saving me from everything that was meant to destroy me..
Like i said before, a woman’s dignity and self respect is given to her by ALLAH, none other can give her that nor take it away..
Shukran Ya Rabb 🤲
We all say and do things out of anger, there are times when things that are taken on requiring change, if you are not ready to embrace change, don’t take it on, and lastly a woman’s heart, respect and tears are something no man should play with, how fortunate are we women hmm a whole surah created just for us..
So i bid my 2018 farewell thanking this year for the lessons brought to me, as well as my blessings, but also bidding the old me farewell too..
After all it was never about anyone else, it was my ability to show ALLAH my love for HIM and then being true to myself 💖
If we have had any altercation, I do apologize and please know that you are forgiven too..
I forgive everything bad thing said and done to bring me down, and know that we move forward on a new cleaner slate 💐
I have learnt that holding onto pain is holding onto the blade of a very sharp sword, the only person that will get hurt is the one holding on, release the anger, the pain and embrace that whoever is trying to bring you down is going through something they may never talk about, it was never really about me..
Maybe it was about them and the demons they were fighting inside..
LET LIVE.. LET LOVE.. LET GO, LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR PETTY GRIEVANCES, FOR BITTERNESS AND REVENGE.. EVERYTHING UNFOLDS IN TIME.. IN GOD’S TIME..
I FORGIVE FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..
I LOVE YOU FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..
AND I WISH YOU THE VERY BEST FOR THE SAKE OF MY LORD..
GOODBYE 2018
WELCOME 2019 WITH PEACE, LOVE AND EVERYTHING THAT IS PLEASING TO OUR MERCIFUL LORD..
UNLEASH THE WARRIOR INSIDE MY BEAUTIFUL, ALLAH LOVES US UNCONDITIONALLY ❤️💖💋
UNTIL WE CROSS PATHS AGAIN, MAY THE TURN OF YOUR NEW YEAR BE ONE THAT IS FILLED WITH ALLAH’S MOST BEAUTIFUL BLESSINGS AMEEN 😘
THAT’S A WRAP FROM DIARIES OF A DEEP SOUL, IT’S NOW TIME FOR SELF INTROSPECTION, TO WORK ON MY HEALING AND ME 🙏💖
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, ALLAH HAFEZ 💝😘💖
