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What is one thing you would change about yourself?.. In My Own Words..

What is one thing you would change about yourself?

“The truth is simple.. I am done giving my whole heart to people who never came with their own.”

If there is one thing I would change about myself, it would be this. I would stop assuming that everyone carries a heart built like mine. I would stop handing out honesty like it’s a common language when, in truth, most people do not even know the alphabet of sincerity. I would stop covering for people who would never cover for me, stop protecting those who would gladly watch me bleed, stop being soft in a world that has proven again and again that softness is a luxury few deserve.

It sounds harsh, but it is the truth that life has hammered into me. I walk around believing that goodness is universal, that loyalty is instinctive, that when I shield people, they would shield me. But the reality is uglier, and far less poetic, some people will take everything I give, offer nothing in return, and still have the audacity to drive a knife straight into the jugular of my trust.

And the worst part?

I still try. I still give. I still hope.

If I could change one thing, it would be learning to reserve my goodness for places and people who have earned it. It would be understanding that compassion is a gift, not an obligation. That kindness without boundaries becomes self-destruction. That my heart is not a public resource.

I want to stop dimming my instincts just to keep toxic people comfortable.

I want to stop romanticising potential when reality is screaming.

I want to be wise enough to step back the moment someone shows me who they are, instead of giving them another chance to wound me deeper.

Changing this does not mean becoming cold, it means becoming selective. It means protecting my heart with the same intensity I have used to protect others. It means realising that being a good person does not require me to bleed for people who would not even lend me a bandage.

I deserve reciprocity. I deserve honesty. I deserve the same softness I give. And if I must change something, let it be this..

I will no longer spend my light on people who thrive in my darkness.

I will no longer shrink myself to fit the loyalty I never received.

I will be good, but naive no more.

I will be kind, but not at my own expense.

Because my heart is rare, and I finally understand that not everyone deserves access to it.

THE SECOND HALF OF MY LIFE BELONGS TO ME..

There comes a point in every woman’s life where survival stops being the goal and self-respect becomes the standard. A point where the battles I had fought, the storms I had walked through, and the wounds I had stitched shut with my bare hands became my evidence, proof that I did not survive hell just to tolerate what drains my spirit now.

I have crossed oceans of pain to get here.

I have walked through fire barefoot.

I have carried heartbreak, betrayal, disappointment, and the weight of responsibilities that nearly broke my back, yet here I stand.

So no, I will not apologise for protecting my peace.

I will not shrink myself to fit into places that cannot hold me.

And I will not pour into people who come with empty hands and entitled hearts.

I have learned the hard way that not everyone who had access deserved it. Some people only understood my giving, never my boundaries. Some loved the light I carried but contributed nothing to the flame. Some took and took and took… Then acted offended when I finally stopped bleeding for their comfort or selfish needs.

Forgiveness?

Yes, I have given that.

But forgetting?

No, now that is something I refuse to do. Not because I hold grudges, but because wisdom is born from remembrance. Forgetting would only make me vulnerable to repeating cycles that nearly destroyed me. I owe myself more than that.

This second half of my life will be lived with clarity, with intention, with self-love so strong it intimidates the version of me who once accepted crumbs. My boundaries are not walls, they are gates and I decide who gets the privilege of entering. I decide who gets my softness, my effort, my loyalty, my time. The access I give from here on will be earned, honoured, and never taken for granted again.

I am choosing me now, fully, unapologetically, consistently.

The woman I am becoming is no longer fueled by fear or longing for approval.

She is guided by experience, protected by self-respect, and powered by a heart that refuses to settle for less than what it deserves.

This is the second half of my life…

And I will live it for me. Not for what broke me. Not for what left me. Not for what drained me.

For me.. The woman who survived everything that was meant to destroy her… and decided she would rise anyway.

🌸 Happy Me Day .. The Celebration We Forgot to Have 🌸

Invent a holiday! Explain how and why everyone should celebrate.

🕊 “We celebrate everyone and everything, birthdays, anniversaries, promotions, but we forget to celebrate the person who got us through it all.. OURSELVES.” 🕊️

If we can celebrate love on Valentine’s Day, family on Mother’s and Father’s Day, and togetherness on countless public holidays, then surely, we deserve one day to celebrate ourselves. I would call it Happy Me Day. A day dedicated not to perfection, but to presence. Not to others, but to YOU.

🌸 “Somewhere between surviving and becoming, we forgot to clap for the person who never gave up, the one in the mirror.” 🌸

We live in a world that applauds achievements, milestones, and social celebrations, but often forgets to acknowledge the silent battles, the nights you did not give up, the tears no one saw, the times you kept believing when everything was falling apart. Happy Me Day would be the day we pause and whisper to ourselves, “I made it through things I never thought I would survive.”

💫 “Imagine if the world stopped for one day, not to honor anyone else, but to honor you, your strength, your story, your scars. That is what Happy Me Day should be.”

This day would not need balloons or confetti, it would need honesty. It would need you to sit with yourself and say, “Thank you, me.” To reflect on how far you have come, not in comparison to others, but in the quiet evolution of your own soul. Maybe you would take yourself out for coffee, write yourself a love letter, go for a long walk alone, or simply rest without guilt. Because you have earned that softness. You have earned that peace.

🌿 “You have been your own hero far too many times to go uncelebrated.” 🌿

Too often, we wait for others to validate us. We wait for someone to notice our growth, our effort, our healing. But Happy Me Day says, stop waiting. You are worth celebrating right now, not when life is perfect, but because you are still standing, still trying, still choosing hope after everything you have been through.

And here is the truth, when we learn to celebrate ourselves, we teach the world how to treat us. We remind people that self-love is not selfish, it is sacred. We heal louder, we forgive deeper, and we start living more intentionally.

So maybe this year, let us start our own tradition. Let us give ourselves the love we keep giving away. Let us declare our own Happy Me Day, and let it remind us that even when no one claps for us, we still matter, we still shine, and we still deserve to be celebrated.

The Weight of the Strong One..

There comes a point where silence is not avoidance, it is survival.

When the “strong one” retreats, people call it distance. They take it personally, they assume it is rejection, or worse, indifference. But what they do not see is the exhaustion that hides behind the composure. The quiet is not coldness. It is the sound of someone who has given too much, felt too deeply, and held too many others up while drowning themselves.

Being the strong one is a lonely title. You become everyone’s emotional pit stop. A place where others drop their burdens, vent their storms, and leave lighter. But when your own sky starts falling, who stands under your rain? You swallow your tears, put on your brave face, and keep showing up because that is what you have always done. That is what they expect. That is what has made you “the dependable one.”

But here is the truth they do not understand, strength has limits. Even the sun sets. Even iron rusts. Even the kindest hearts can fracture under constant weight. You start distancing not because you have stopped caring, but because you have finally started feeling. Feeling the burnout, the emptiness, the ache of being unseen. You pull away not to hurt anyone, but to stop hurting yourself.

No one talks about the guilt that comes with needing space. You find yourself apologizing for self-preservation, explaining silence as if healing requires permission. You feel bad for not replying, for not having the energy to listen, for no longer being available on demand. But let us be real, when did your peace become a debt owed to people who never check if your heart is still beating under the smile?

The strong one gets tired too.

Tired of always being the shoulder, the solution, the safety net.

Tired of carrying conversations that feel one-sided.

Tired of being expected to understand, forgive, and absorb pain that is not theirs.

You can only pour from an empty cup for so long before you realise, you are bleeding for people who would not notice if you disappeared.

So, you start to disappear. Not out of spite, but out of necessity. You stop answering every call. You stop fixing what is not yours. You stop over-extending. You stop begging to be seen by people who only look for you when they need saving. And for the first time, you breathe. You sit in your solitude, not because you hate people, but because you finally love yourself enough to rest.

Distance is not detachment. It is the pause between being drained and being okay again. It is reclaiming energy from a world that confuses kindness with obligation. It is saying, I am done proving my worth through exhaustion.

Let them call you distant. Let them label you cold. Let them misread your quiet. Because those who truly care will feel the difference between your silence and your absence and they will come looking, not for what you can give, but for only for you and out of pure love.

I am not pulling away because I stopped caring.. I am pulling away because I finally realized I cannot keep dying to prove I do.

“The Iron Behind Her Beauty”..

Behind every beautiful woman is not just mascara and motivation, it is minerals she is running low on, a nervous system that never clocks out, and a heart that is held the line far longer than it should have. She is not just glowing, she is surviving, shaking, recalculating her peace every single day like a walking miracle that forgot how to rest.

Let us get one thing straight, beauty is not always built from self-care and confidence. Sometimes, it is built from caffeine, cortisol, and a handful of supplements she keeps forgetting to take. Behind that flawless eyeliner is a woman who has not had a proper iron count in years. Behind those perfectly timed smiles are the heart palpitations she does not talk about.

And behind that quiet strength?

A body that is whispering..

“Please slow down,” while her world keeps saying, “Speed up.”

She is the woman who gets dizzy standing too fast, who shivers when no one else is cold, who has mastered the art of pretending she is okay while her body is fighting silent battles. Her anxiety does not come from nowhere, it is an orchestra of hormones, deficiencies, and emotional exhaustion playing in sync. Her depression is not drama, it is depletion.

And her overthinking?

It is what happens when your mind is constantly trying to fix what your body cannot carry anymore.

But still, she shows up, even when she is running on empty. She gives when she has got nothing left to give. She keeps her head high when her iron’s low, and her patience even lower. Yet somehow, she is the one expected to keep it together, smile through the storm, and make everyone else feel comfortable.

So before you come at her with your drama, your mixed signals, or your emotional immaturity..

Ask yourself?

Do you really think she still needs your shit? Because this woman is already carrying more than her fair share, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

She does not need chaos. She needs calm. She does not need validation. She needs vitamins. She does not need another reason to question her worth. She needs peace that does not require her to earn it.

And when she finally learns to walk away from people who drain her faster than her body can recover, that is not attitude, that is awareness. That is what survival looks like dressed in eyeliner and exhaustion.

She is not high maintenance.. She is low iron. Handle her with care or watch her disappear with class.

The Biggest Risk I Have Not Taken Yet.. But have had no way of taking that risk is..

What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?

“I have built homes in people long enough, now it is time to build one for myself. I do not need much, just peace that has my name on the lease.” 🕯️

If you ask me what the biggest risk I have not taken yet is, it would not be love, career, or chasing a dream, it would be investing in a home of my own. Not a mansion. Not a fancy apartment. Just four walls and a roof I can finally call mine.

See, life has a funny way of keeping you in survival mode while whispering promises of stability you can almost touch. For years, I have been the one holding everyone else together, patching cracks that were not mine, pouring into cups that never seemed to refill, paying bills that were not always my responsibility, and showing up for people who forgot that I too had needs. Somewhere between being the strong one and the dependable one, I forgot to be the settled one.

Ever since my mom passed, it has felt like I have been walking on shifting ground. There has always been another crisis, another bill, another situation demanding “just one more” sacrifice. And because I have always had a giving heart, I kept saying yes. Yes to helping, yes to carrying, yes to being that safe place for everyone else, while my own dream of a safe place slowly slipped further away.

People can be cruel in quiet ways. They know your situation, they see your struggle, and still they pull from you. They take without thinking about how much it costs you, emotionally, mentally, even spiritually. They expect your light to stay on while they keep dimming yours with their demands. And through all of that, I have kept giving, because I was raised to love, to care, to hold space. But even love gets tired when it has nowhere to rest.

Owning a home.. My Own Home.. has now become more than a goal. It is a symbol of peace. It is a promise to myself that I will no longer just exist between helping others and healing myself. It is where I could finally breathe without worrying who might walk in, who might ask for something, or who might leave. I do not crave luxury.. I crave belonging. I crave a space where my mother’s memory can rest quietly on a shelf and not just in my chest.

I have learned that sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is risk everything for the one thing that will finally bring you peace. And for me, that is a home, not just walls, but healing in brick form.

If I am being honest, I would rather go to bed hungry in my own home than broke in someone else’s. Because hunger passes… but emptiness from never building something that is truly yours, that lingers.

Maybe one day, someone out there will understand that this is not about money, it is about meaning. It is about the kind of security that says, you have carried enough, it is now time to rest.

So yes, the biggest risk I have not taken yet is investing in a home of my own. But I am done putting that dream on hold. Because I have built lives, love, and legacies for others. Now it is time I build something for me. 🕯️

She Is Not Lost..

She is not just alone. She is burning out. She is losing pieces of the light she used to carry effortlessly, running a marathon that has no finish line, only more miles ahead. Society praises the overachiever, the woman who does it all and looks flawless while doing it. But no one speaks of the quiet exhaustion beneath her polished exterior, the gnawing ache of being seen but not truly known.

Studies show that women thrive in spaces where they feel seen, safe, and supported. Why? Because connection is a form of regulation. When she is surrounded by those who understand her rhythm, her breath slows, her heart rests. She does not crave attention.. Attention is hollow. She craves connection, deep, real, nourishing connection that does not demand a mask, that does not keep a ledger of what she gives. Her heart is full, not empty. Her wisdom is vast, but no one asks the questions that unlock it. She pours endlessly into the world, but the cup she drinks from remains dry.

Even when she achieves great things, there is no proper room to celebrate. No one claps loud enough. No one sees the late nights, the invisible battles, the moments she chose discipline over surrender. Her brain never rests. It is always scanning..

What comes next?

Did I do well enough?

Do they see my worth?

Am I enough?

And though she may appear calm, poised, or even untouchable, her body tells a different story, constant tension, a silent alarm, a fight-or-flight mode running on empty.

So, the next time you see a woman withdrawn, overextending herself, flustered, or on edge, know this, she is not lost. She is not broken. She is searching. She is searching for her tribe, the people who will see her without needing to fix her, who will celebrate her without judgment, who will give her space to breathe without guilt. She is searching for the sanctuary of shared understanding.

And if you are that woman searching, know this, baby-girl, you are not alone. You are not failing. You are not too much. You are exactly as you should be, alive, wise, full of love, and deserving of a place where your heart can finally rest.