What is one thing you would change about yourself?
“The truth is simple.. I am done giving my whole heart to people who never came with their own.”
If there is one thing I would change about myself, it would be this. I would stop assuming that everyone carries a heart built like mine. I would stop handing out honesty like it’s a common language when, in truth, most people do not even know the alphabet of sincerity. I would stop covering for people who would never cover for me, stop protecting those who would gladly watch me bleed, stop being soft in a world that has proven again and again that softness is a luxury few deserve.
It sounds harsh, but it is the truth that life has hammered into me. I walk around believing that goodness is universal, that loyalty is instinctive, that when I shield people, they would shield me. But the reality is uglier, and far less poetic, some people will take everything I give, offer nothing in return, and still have the audacity to drive a knife straight into the jugular of my trust.
And the worst part?
I still try. I still give. I still hope.
If I could change one thing, it would be learning to reserve my goodness for places and people who have earned it. It would be understanding that compassion is a gift, not an obligation. That kindness without boundaries becomes self-destruction. That my heart is not a public resource.
I want to stop dimming my instincts just to keep toxic people comfortable.
I want to stop romanticising potential when reality is screaming.
I want to be wise enough to step back the moment someone shows me who they are, instead of giving them another chance to wound me deeper.
Changing this does not mean becoming cold, it means becoming selective. It means protecting my heart with the same intensity I have used to protect others. It means realising that being a good person does not require me to bleed for people who would not even lend me a bandage.
I deserve reciprocity. I deserve honesty. I deserve the same softness I give. And if I must change something, let it be this..
I will no longer spend my light on people who thrive in my darkness.
I will no longer shrink myself to fit the loyalty I never received.
I will be good, but naive no more.
I will be kind, but not at my own expense.
Because my heart is rare, and I finally understand that not everyone deserves access to it.