You are all alone..
You feel like you are the only one on earth that has to deal with all of this hardship and pain, all these obstacles being placed in your path..
You sit back in the dark and you cry, you sob from deep down, no-one seems to understand the silent questions written all over your face..
You look over to your right, your prayer mat placed neatly on the bedside chair, you look up at the shelf above your bed, your Quran in that very fancy case you just had to have, full of dust and untouched. You want so badly to make that change, you so desperately want to make all this hurt go away…
Closing your eyes you take a deep breath and even though it hurts you take that breath anyway, it is killing you to think of how you had been saved on a daily basis, but chose to be blind to HIS presence..
You realise that you had to now take back what you turned away from, you know that turning to Allah, you will never be let down nor would you fall without assistance in getting back up..
You walk over to the wash basin, look into the mirror and say to yourself that this is the only way..
You make wudhu..
Sitting on that very musallah you refused to touch, you lift your hands and start making that much needed dua..
Asking Allah to save You, to fill your life with barakah and Rahma..
You beg Allah to protect you from shaitaan and his whisperings..
You feel a sense of ease because you know that you have now chosen a path that will Grant you all the contentment you so desired..
Mixed emotions, you feel afraid..
This new journey is a journey not for the faint at heart..
But you choose to have faith, you feel your imaan getting stronger..
You want the change, so you sit back, to relate and reminisce on all the vices that made you stray and you now realise that by turning to Allah, HE will never let you down, HE will never let you fall..
With a heavy heart and eyes full of tears, you lift your hands and you make dua, do not be afraid, have faith and take the leap, because Allah will never let you fall…
I need You
I trust you
My love is just for You
My Allah i promise today never to put anything above you..
Oh my Allah I need you, my Allah I need you..
