I have always been so afraid of dying before knowing this feeling. I have been through bad, put myself through worse and thought that love had to make me bleed, that it always had to hurt. I have grown up. I refuse to go down not accepting who i am. I have being doing my digging and i have gone down every dark path. I am now confidently stronger than i have ever been, importantly i have made peace with my mistakes. I know now that self love is messy and what i never saw coming. That it is not hiding what will not be accepted and that it is allowing myself to become new at any given second. It took me much and much more time to realize that no one’s love is more important than that of my Creator first and me after. To let go of those who showed me no love nor compassion and to set free those who chose to walk away, to ignore the shame brought to my name by someone’s willing to cause such defame. So from here there is only one way out..
I am going to love myself the way it sets the world free..
I am going to love myself the way it empowers the real me..
I never truly meant so much to myself as i do right now..
I will die knowing this feeling of truly loving me..
