It is when you have woken up with a full day ahead of you after only two hours of sleep.
It is when there is nothing for you to do but stand by your friends as they deal with painful dillema’s and all the obstacles we have thrown in our paths…
It is when you do not know how to handle the situations in your life that are anything but black and white.
It is when you feel utterly helpless and powerless as you watch someone you care about aching with deep soul wounds that only come from losing the person that comprised the other half of their heart.
It is when your own heart feels as though it has been crushed beyond recognition over and over again.
It is when your path is entirely unclear and you do not know if the next step is solid ground or off a cliff.
It is when you are not sure if the decisions you made are the right ones or maybe not the right ones.
It is when it looks as though the world is irrevocably falling apart.
It is when it seems like people are becoming more and more disconnected, lonely, and afraid.
It is when you feel as though there is no way you can even begin to help fix any of it.
It is when you realize that, in spite of it all, you really are smart and strong enough to make it through step by step…
It is when you realize that just when you thought you had nothing left to give, you discover you actually have everything to give and much more.
It is when you want to give up on it all, but find that one thing that drives you to keep going.
It is easy to love and give and feel happy and alive when things are going well, when we feel as though the world is our oyster. But what happens when life feels as though it is caving in with a spirit crushing weight?
The past few months have been filled with many painful heart breaking events, recurrence of cancer being the scariest of them and at this point I asked myself do I sink or do I continue swimming??? Hoping along the way that Allah sends positivity or even glad tidings my way….
I chose to continue swimming!!!!
There would come times when we feel exhausted, burnt out, and desperately wanting to quit. At times like this, remember the goal and stay focused.
I remember that pain and discomfort are temporary, and the strength, endurance, flexibility, and functionality I am gaining is invaluable.
Working through life’s issues may seem like an insignificant comparison to major life events, the psychological training is the same. What you tell yourself in moments that seem unimportant is what re-emerge when things get hard…
As the saying goes, “You don’t rise to the level of your expectations, you fall to the level of your training.”
You do not grow when things are easy and effortless. You grow when you are being challenged, sometimes beyond what you think you are capable of handling.
We carry ideas of what we think loving and living are until something comes along and redefines how we see it all. Sometimes it redefines it by making it appear as though it’s completely broken or entirely gone.
But you know what the beautiful part of it all is?
Just because we think something is broken does not mean that it cannot be mended in some way.
Just because we think we cannot see something does not mean it is not there. The world around us reminds us of it all the time. The sun, moon, and stars silently show us that they exist even when there is too much in the way to see them…
It is not easy. It is really, really hard. In fact, sometimes it looks nearly impossible. How are we supposed to gather our scattered bits of resolve to rebuild the will to keep moving forward when all we really want to do is curl up and hide from the world?
It is those times we have to step aside and heal in whatever way we can, and in that time, remember find what keeps us going.
It is when we think we have no reason left to love, and sometimes when we question our very existence, that we have to allow ourselves to find and create a whole new beauty from what may have felt like an end.
Those who have endured some misfortune will always be set apart but it is just that misfortune which is their gift and which is their strength.
If we are open to the lessons from our hardship, misfortune, and heartbreak they will inevitably build within us an increasingly unshakable compassion, understanding, and love.
Losing so much of what i loved and watching as friends contend with their own losses, I have learned that when it seems things not be any worse, that is when it is most important to gather every last bit of will, courage and heart, forge the faith and never stop believing that love and life are worth every single moment.
Even those that break our hearts…
Hitting rock bottom emotionally, means that there is only way left.. And that is the way back up, claw your way up if you must, but get up nevertheless, if you slip back down, get up and keep moving till you see that silver lining again…
Those painful times should teach you how to live again, how to give again, those moments you so wish to forget should teach you how to love again…
