I woke up at 3am sharp, drenched as though I had walked a million miles. Lately, something had been pulling me away from my prayer and meditation, but this morning was different, the air itself seemed to guide me. In my dream, I was sitting alone on a bench in a field bursting with the most beautiful flowers and colors imaginable, tears streaming down my face.
Moments later, hands rested on my shoulders. I lifted my head, and there they were. My Mamma and My Daddy, young, radiant, full of love. I laid my head on my daddy’s shoulder, sobbing, but before I could speak, he whispered, We know… we know everything that has been done to you, everything, girl (daddy’s pet name for me)
My mother sat beside me, stroking my hair. What has happened to you? Where is my positive, happy go lucky child?, she asked, tears streaming down her face. I wiped them away as she apologized, broken and gentle, Mummy is so sorry, my child, for not being fair to you.
Together, they said it in one breath, do not make your heart small, or change, be as you have been because it will be over soon. We will be together, and no one will hurt you again. They repeated it, over and over, and as they held my hands, we walked into the floral field. The scent, the colors, the light, it etched itself into my soul. And then, we disappeared into the beauty, together.
I woke at prayer time, heart heavy but full. They know my pain. They see my struggles, my name, my respect, my heart. And even in death, they are with me, guiding me, reminding me that love never dies.
No one absolutely no one, can take that from me. Not the ones who try to tarnish my name, not the ones who sow discord, my parents love, their pride in me, their protection, walks with me every step. And if anyone dares to think they can hurt me without consequence, let them remember, the eyes of my mamma and daddy see all. Their hands, their hearts, their souls are forever intertwined with mine. And ALLAH, in His infinite wisdom, knows my pain, my tears, my endurance. It will all be over soon, and in the light of their love, I am untouchable.
So today i thank you ALLAH for bringing them both to me when i needed them the most, i thank you for giving me peace of having to have seen them both together and peace knowing that whatever you have placed in my body is a way of my chance to repent so when my leaf falls, i meet them sin free and feel their pride when they hug me and welcome me ❤️🥰😭
